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CherokeeChica
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Name: Romula,
Country: United States
State: Maryland
Metro: Silver Spring
Birthday: 7/12/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: ASK ME!!!!! geez
You FREAKIN IDIOT!
Expertise: well i'm still trying to figure that out...?
maybe it's drawing, writing, acting, and maybe even being an awesome soccer player...i don't know u tell me.
Occupation: Accounting/Finance
Industry: Art
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  RedCherokeeWolf
Member Since:
4/3/2005
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| yo i'm betta peeps...been down and despressed but betta....loving my friends a lot.....and going through my own therapy for my leg so you all i'll be back on the field on monday and playing tuesday against wheaton ...our senior game yah.....love you all thanks for the support....i'm chillen nnow and i hope u all like my background...much love ok...ttyl
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| i kno i havent posted here....srry u all, but yea... i broke up wit john and i feel like an ass, but i didn't love him anymore....but does that really make me a bitch...does that make me someone bad. i broke up wit him because i felt like i was taking him in a wild goose chase. he loved me, but my love was fading. people knew it....people saw it. i couldn't even be in his presence without running away. i wasn't comfortable. why would i stay with him and hurt him more if i knew i wasn't going to change......does it matter.....of course it does....and i know i just lost soemone important in my life.....i swear i'm done with boys cause i'm tired of breaking their hearts. it hurt my guy friends when they found out i was tied down, i hurt john now that i'm not with him......i'm i really a bad person......i'm i evil. i cant see how men can have this undying love for you, like their love grows more and more for you everyday as if their draining your love straight from you to them.
it makes no sense. i swear i loved him like no other, i swear i wanted to be with him forever, but as the times went on i started to lose that. no matter how hard i tried to ignore it, it showed. even though i wanted to be touched by him feel him in my presence a part of me didn't want that. a part of me ran away. it crushed him. it seemed to him i didnt like him, like he was doing something wrong. and constantly i would run to another guy friend, constantly i would let him play around me, but i never let john do it. i wasnt going to change. i tried to put up with it, tried to change, but bad habits die hard. i knew i couldn't change. so i did it. i was loosing my love for him, i was uncomfortable with him. and so long i have tried to go through it, ignore it, but not once did it work. but does that make me evil? does that make me a bitch? does it make me unwanted? unfair? ignorant? does it make me soemthing that i'm not?
who knows that answer? i doubt nobody knows....it was my decision that i felt best. i was misleading him. making him love me more. i couldn't let it happen i couldn't let it get worse. i cant think anymore....i'm done.
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| Hey everyone...hope u all enjoyed ur fourth of july....go check out www.xanga.com/demonsview to read my story....it's nice i hope...lol
well comment a lot on my xanga ok actually on both if u can and ask away if u have any questions...i'm bored now...lolbye | | |
| hey hey hey....everyone...haven't heard from any of u losers lately...lol
well nothings been happening much despite the fact i'm getting in trouble like crazy and my birthdays coming in 12 days so u kno...the whole tension thing..lol
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So like i got in trouble by my mother...for soem dumb reason i was being disrespectful...yea right as if i'd say that about myself...the whole problem was that i wouldn't let my sis hit me unless i hit her back...letting her know who was boss....i don't care if she gets hurt because i get hurt all the time by her....she's a little i know, but she shouldn't have that much authority over me which reallly pisses me off...and i said i don't care randomly out loud because i was pissed and my step dad got all cry baby and said you shouldn't say that about your sister she loves you and i said it again i don't care...i didn't kno wut had happened to her when i pushed her...i just thought she was whining to get me in trouble...so my mom comes in adn is yelling at me like usual for pushing my sis, but htis time she was challenging me as if i had just stabbed someone in the back...she said did u tell rueban(stepdad) that you didn't care...and i said yea and i meant it....not realizng why they were getting upset over it...so because of that my mom took both my cell phone and my computer away within five minutes adn she was pissed...i didn't care because she had no right to be in my face over something ridiculous...i know i sound a little mean, but hey that's my life...u all probably wouldn't understand how i felt whne my own mother told me to go and live with my fahter...as u probably don't kno i'm an illegitment child aka bastard....so that really hurt...i was a child by mistake adn everytime she gets mad at me i think thats the reason why now....i mean she's all lovey-dovey with dominique, adn listens to her, but i rarely get to talk to my mom and when i do she ignores me...even if she's doing nothing and i have to constantly repeat myself to her because she goes off in to her own world....it really hurts.....i don't think i'm staying around anytime soon cause i can't stand the tension it's infuriating me where i'm willing to run away and stay with a friend....but don't tell my mom that....lol |
so...for all those who have been trying to call me or email me or commeting me...i'm so srry so u kno...don't get mad get glad...anyways for all those who like to read, my stories up adn running again so um...go check it out at DEMONSVIEW!!!!
oh and this whole myspace thing....should i join or wut...my buddies been buggin me about it....should i ....to much eh...COMMENT!!!!!!! | | |
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